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does it Ever REALLY maTtEr?..
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[Wednesday
September 13th, 2006
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jamie jamie jamie jamie jamie.
its always jamie. always on my mind. always making me sad.happy.mad.frustrated. all in the same day.
i hate loving him.
i dot understand why he keeps saying he loves me but he wont date me.
i hate thinking the most.
almost out of school =)
applied for jobs yesterday..
♥
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| humm |
[Thursday
August 24th, 2006
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i love jamie camppbell. a boy im not dating.
i stay at his house almost everyday, he tells me he loves me.. but we arent dating.
fuck boyss. fuck love.
i really thought we would be together forever, but i guess alot of people think that baout certain people.
i wish i had weed.
♥
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| SPRING BREAKK ! hhWhattt? |
[Wednesday
March 29th, 2006
at 8:06pm] |
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well my Spring Break was pretty rAD.
it start a week early bc i got suspended for 10 days..
but defff partied so hard thursday and friday night.
i love abbagail! deff my litle party girl.
exept we got into a fight saturday, she called me a bitch, i almost punched her, and she left there, and i was so fucking drunk. had around 15 shots of some vodkkkkkka!!!!
but frida night some really bad things ahppened that wernt in my control..
things that could have ruined everything..
♥♥
oh i got a job working at BURGER KING!! my first day is friday!!!
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| *DIE*DIE*DIE*DIE*DIE* |
[Monday
February 6th, 2006
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yeah so this morning i missed the bus. my mom was really pissed. humm well here are some of the things i was called by my "MOM" today...
X♥X Bitch
X♥X asshole
X♥X fuck up
X♥ "not worth her time"
X♥ piece of shit
yeah isnt how fucking nice she is to me.. i serious wanted to die the whole ride to school. i wish abbagails aunt didnt hate me...
so beachouse is suppose to be wed. ... how funnnn
in some ways i want to go, in thers id rather die...
talked to shannnon and Jenna last night. i missss them. suppose to go over there after the beachhouse drama is overrrr..
LOUIE came over yesterday and so dod andy and one of his friends. i miss them...
i L♥VE jamie nicholas campbell ♥_♥
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| my life= shit |
[Friday
February 3rd, 2006
at 8:59am] |
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everything is so shitty, im so fucking depressed!
humm.. a list of why?
[[ X♥X ]] My mom is sending me to the beach house on monday
[[ X♥X ]] my mom is taking me to my dads house after school because shes a bitch
[[ X♥X ]] I wont see Jamie or abbagail for SUCH a long time..
[[ X♥X ]] Im failing school.
[[ X♥X ]] Im in AE...
[[ X♥X ]] i hate living..
[[ X♥X ]] jamie has to take care of oatmeal while im gone.. i think he is gonna die.. go look at him, i made him a myspace! www.myspace.com/fuckingoatmeal
[[ ♥ ]] my fucking hand is bruised so bad..
But some good things are..
[[ ♥ ]] Jamie and said he was coming to visit me while i am in the beach house like 3 times a week. curtis said he would drive him!
[[ ♥ ]] i landed my kickflip yesterday!
well thats all....
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| HiGh As A BiTcH |
[Wednesday
February 1st, 2006
at 8:53am] |
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omg omg im so fucking high! me and abbagail just smoked so much KRYPPYYYYY!!! hhaha ♥
I Love little Abbagail! i dont know where in the fuck i would be without her!!!
i L♥VE Jamie Campbell so much! i dont know how i could be so in lOVE with someone! hes pretty much the best thing that has ever happened to! ♥ ♥ ♥
I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far
[[ ♥ ]]
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
[[ ♥ ]]
I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake, a smile, a laugh
Every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with
[[ ♥ ]]
I watched you die
I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
In the middle of the night
For the same damn thing
[[ ♥ ]]
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid
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| fucking high |
[Monday
January 23rd, 2006
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me and abbagail are so high!
bought a quarter of kryyyypppppp today!
YESS!!
at abbagails awaiting to see if i can stay the night...
i ♥ edgeeeee
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| i ♥ the weeeeeeed! |
[Friday
January 20th, 2006
at 7:56am] |
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got a dime last night!! ♥
its deff TOP OF THE LINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hah♥
me n abbagail are going to have SUCH a fantasttic weekend!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
oh im in AE drawing pretty pics on my planner... haha abbagail has the BEST planner of ALL TIME!
♥
i love jamie♥ and abbagail ♥
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| jamie campbell |
[Thursday
January 19th, 2006
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i am so in love with jamie campbell!
he tells me he loves me back but its hard to believe him.. i believe him once, but now dont.
hes everything ever wanted and more...
♥ ♥ im living the DrEaM..
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| god DAMN IT |
[Thursday
January 19th, 2006
at 8:05am] |
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me n ababgail smoked before school today and then LOST THE FUCKING SHITTT!!!
we are soo pissed. how the FUCK could that happen? well anyways, yyesterday was so fantastic!
jamie came over for like 1 1/2 hours. curtis drove him and then picked him up but we thought he left him and it was saadddd!
we were suppose to watch the notebook yesterday, but ofcourse plans always get messed up...
♥ ♥ ♥
have plans to go to edge this weekend..
A B B A G A I LL ! ! ! ! ! ! !
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| hehehe lesbians make me GIgGlE! |
[Wednesday
January 18th, 2006
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hhah so i guess i have a bunch of people commenting on my shit that have too much time on thier hands OBVIOUSLY!
haha and i guess im a *COKE HEAD* and a *SLUT* who lives on a *STREET* but if only these people knew..
haha ive NEVER done coke before, all these bitched are just pised bc im "skinny" so they try to make up bullshit rumors. ive had sex with SO few people thaat i could fit them all on one hand. i live in a house that is preobly three times the size of all the fucking people commenting me, so now tell me how the fuck this shit talking that your doing is true??
so why dont you all just shut the fuck up and stopping worrying about my life, which you should all no is better then yours bc i dont have to sit here and shittalk!
♥
BUT ANYWAYS FOR THE PEOPLE WHO FUCKING COUNT!
stayed at abbagails last night, walked around the pond. jamie was suppose to come over, but ti was already like 11 or something.
this morning was SO MUCH FUN! i love llittle abbagail!
going to curtis's house today to wathc The Notebook ith whuteny and jamie!!!!
soooo excited! <3 ♥ <3
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| HAHA LEZZZ |
[Monday
January 9th, 2006
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why do ppl hate?
hahah some retarded kids nvr ever learn...
well i just got back from McDonalds with abbagail n i saw sean their. pretty interesting but im glad wre "friends" now..
i miss whitney,
i miss curtis,
and jessica..
jamie is being an asshole.
me n abbagail just bought some more *~ GoOdieS ~*
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[Monday
January 9th, 2006
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abbagail is coming home with me today n we are gonna do some "things" untill its time for the moive! YAY!
we are seeing hostage or something and im gonna be SO SCARED!
i love jamie campbell
im SO BORED IN AE
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[Wednesday
December 28th, 2005
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jamie campbell told me he LOVED ME
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| best day <3 |
[Monday
December 19th, 2005
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todaywas so fantastic!
curtis steves and whitney started going out today!
i made babaies with jamie and whitney and curtis made babaies in the same bed with us at the same time! it was so excited!
i think i love jamie campbell<3 <3
i held noah steves today!
ABBAGAIL I LOVE YOU AND CANT WAIT TILL TOMORROW WHEN YOU STAY THE NIGHT!
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[Monday
December 12th, 2005
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well things have been going okay. my mom tried to send me to the beaachhouse recentyyl but, nothing can make me sad because jamie makes me soo happy! we will be dating for one month on wednesdy and im SO EXCITED!
i talked to connor last night for like 45 minutes and it was so fun. i mss that kid! <3
well i love you alllllll <3
just took my final for eng. 2
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| so happy<3 |
[Friday
December 2nd, 2005
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im so happy. its wierd because im never really this happy with life.
me n jamie have been goiong out for 2weeks and 2 days. he makes me soo happy.
skipping in the library by myself because whintey had a test.. i love my lil whitney.
trying my best not to skip. but im skipping monday with melody and whitney because i must and jamie is coing over wich makes me deff happy. i <3 him. he makes me smile more then ever. i havent felt this way in along time. maybe never, its so different having aguy who truely likes you and donest just wanna have sex.
<3 <3 edgewater <3 <3 i havent forgotten about you. i miss you all sooo much.
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[Friday
November 18th, 2005
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@ <--- this is for u whitney!
<3 <3
me n jamie ar e going out! YES!
in AE witwo marvelous PALS@
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| yeah so.. |
[Saturday
November 12th, 2005
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from day one i talked about getting out,
but not forgetting about,
all my worst fears are letting out,
he said why put a new address,
on the same old loneliness,
when breathing just passes the time,
untill we all just get old and die,
now talkings just a waste of breath,
and livings just a waste of death,
and why put a new address,
on this same old loneliness.........
yeah soo i was suppose to be home at 5:30 last ngiht. it is now 11 in the mornign.. damn.. looks like i might b in T R o U b L e . . . .
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